Hmmm.. looks like more than two months lapsed without any entry posted in this space. Many events had taken place, I just have to let them passed, I guessed.
January is a 'big' month for me. Nada will be 5 in the next three weeks... it reminds me, I've got to start making her my handmade birthday dress, the tradition I wish to keep.
Last night, I accompanied Nada for her bedtime. I read to her one of her favorite books - "My Mother's Garden" and switched the lights off after.
These were our chit-chat in the dark which left me pondering for a very long time :
Nada : "Mommy, kalau Mommy dengan Daddy meninggal, siapa nak jaga Nada?"
Mommy :"Mommy tak fikir. Nada nak siapa jaga Nada?"
Nada : "Abang Nyia lah"
Mommy : "Abang Nyia can't really take care of you. He needs to go to school..."
Nada : "Oooooo... Cik Byie nak jaga Nada tak?"
Mommy : "Mommy tak tahu, may be we can ask her. Mommy rasa biar Nek lah jaga Nada"
Nada : "Why?"
Mommy : "Because I know, Nek loves you as much as Mommy loves you"
Nada : "Oooooooo"...
Nada : "Mommy, Nada rasa kalau Mommy dengan Daddy meninggal, Nada pun nak meninggal lah...."
It's unbearable for me......
Nada :"Mommy, why you cry?"
Life is short. Love and treasure what we have...